Hi Jenn, I don't go on any adoption message boards. I see my adoptive family as my own. I traced my birth mum when I was 15 after i rebelled and lost the plot. The first visit was a bit weird with the social worker present. No tears or hugs just a shy hi from us both. The second time I went on my own as she lives 5 mins walk from me!! The first thing she did was offer me a joint! As a 15yr old it seemed quite cool to have a cannabis smoking mum. I soon wised up and vowed never to go see her again. We bump into each other occasionally but we don't speak. She has no interest in me or my 2 daughters.

Last year I traced my birth father. Now it gets complicated!! bear with me. I found my bfather through genes reunited. Well actually contacted my half sis first. SHe was thrilled to hear from me. About 5 days later my bfather rang me and we chatted for hours. It felt amazing. Turned out he worked in the village I grew up in. I told my mil that I had found my bfather and her face dropped. Turned out I was the family secret and I was actually her niece!!! So I married my cousin without knowing. My mil knew all along and never told me. Anyway a few weeks after speaking to by bfather on the phone i recieved a text saying "im sorry cant talk anymore I love my wife too much" She had made him choose between us. I then recieved death threats from my other half sisters. Then he moved to cyprus without me knowing and thats the last I have heard about him. I am not allowed to talk about this with my in laws??

Oh god sorry to go on but feels good to get it out at last. Am actually crying now! Never actually told the whole story before......