Oh, Scotschick!

You have had a really rough time of it, I don't blame you for feeling down.

I agree with all the lovely advice people have given you, but would urge you not to give up on your application. Someone who is as thoughtful and selfless as you is just what the world of Midwifery needs! If you do apply, you have nothing to lose. If you had a successful interview, got a place and it wasn't the right time you could defer that place - most Unis are very accommodating in that way.

I wish you all the best whatever you decide to do, and know that there is always support for you here!
xxx