Stressed to the point of breaking!
Posted 27-Feb-2008 at 09:43 by Noo
If you depress easily, stop reading now!
I've had about enough of college and the midwifery application process! ENOUGH! This is a train I just want to stop and get off and hide in a corner and cry! I hate questioning everything single thing that I'm thinking, saying, said at interview or more to the point DIDN'T say at interview. I hate having massive bags under my eyes, not being able to sleep, having greasy hair that falls out and feeling as though I'm going to puke everytime I check my email or the postman comes to my door. I hate the waiting and the not knowing. I hate the fact that my whole future depends on these interviews and if I do not succeed, I'm stuck in this hell hole of a nursery for another year. I hate the fact that NO ONE around me seems to understand my desperation and depression and what I hate MOST of all.. is no one seems to care!
I'm sick of college not answering emails and not returning calls... I'm sick of not knowing if I've officially finished Access or have to do more work on my research project... I'm sick of Everything.
I hate work, and I hate doing this stinky Nvq.. My assessor is coming in today for work I haven't done cos I couldn't be bothered and to assess me on something i've not even practised yet! I don't want to work there and i don't want to do it... I never wanted to do it, I had to, to be able to work there! There are no other jobs locally other than tesco and I don't think I could handle retail again...
I feel like **** right now and don't really want to do anything... my life can be summed up in one sentence right now..........
STUCK IN PERGETRY
I've had about enough of college and the midwifery application process! ENOUGH! This is a train I just want to stop and get off and hide in a corner and cry! I hate questioning everything single thing that I'm thinking, saying, said at interview or more to the point DIDN'T say at interview. I hate having massive bags under my eyes, not being able to sleep, having greasy hair that falls out and feeling as though I'm going to puke everytime I check my email or the postman comes to my door. I hate the waiting and the not knowing. I hate the fact that my whole future depends on these interviews and if I do not succeed, I'm stuck in this hell hole of a nursery for another year. I hate the fact that NO ONE around me seems to understand my desperation and depression and what I hate MOST of all.. is no one seems to care!
I'm sick of college not answering emails and not returning calls... I'm sick of not knowing if I've officially finished Access or have to do more work on my research project... I'm sick of Everything.
I hate work, and I hate doing this stinky Nvq.. My assessor is coming in today for work I haven't done cos I couldn't be bothered and to assess me on something i've not even practised yet! I don't want to work there and i don't want to do it... I never wanted to do it, I had to, to be able to work there! There are no other jobs locally other than tesco and I don't think I could handle retail again...
I feel like **** right now and don't really want to do anything... my life can be summed up in one sentence right now..........
STUCK IN PERGETRY
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