End of first year.

Posted 09-Aug-2008 at 09:52 by midwifemissy

I have finally reached the end of my first year, everything is signed off at last and I can relax a little bit now.

The last year has been a real roller coaster of emotions, amazing highs, and awful lows when I have really questioned my sanity in wanting to continue with the course. There have been many laughs, and also tears shed along the way

But I have made it through, even though at times it never felt like I would get there, or be strong enough to take all the knocks along the way.

At times I have felt like I don't know anything, and never will, especially when I have been put on the spot by a mentor and my brain just freezes up and refuses to co-operate. But when I reflect later I realise I do know the answer to whatever I have been asked after all, I just couldn't think quickly enough at the time.

But, in contrast there have been times when I have been able to help a mentor with something, such as quick ways to do something on the PC, not anything major I know, but for me it kind of redresses the balance a bit. We are all learning all the time, just in different ways and we all need to help each other. There have also been times when I do know the answer to something, and just ask her in a way that confirms it, which gives me a confidence boost at the time.

I have at times found the last year very frustrating, I hate feeling 'in the way' or like a 'spare part' I prefer to be able to get on with things, but of course this hasn't always been possible due to the circumstances at the time, or my lack experience. I just have to learn to understand that this is just part and parcel of being a student and grin and bear it for now, it won't always be this way.

The last year has gone so quick, and I can't believe I am now a second year, but I know that I am going to have to step up a gear now, and work even harder than I did last year to keep up the pace and to make it through.

I have the determination to do that, and hopefully this time next year I will be able to look back and reflect on my second year too.

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	$Butterfly\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'s Avatar$ Oh well done you missy! what an achievement! I know how hard you have worked and know that you will make a good midwife, there are always times of doubt but somehow we keep on going. Here's to your second year! xxx
	Posted 09-Aug-2008 at 09:57 by Butterfly

	$coffeebean\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'s Avatar$ Well done Missy. You made it through and hopefully realise that you can step up to the challenge.
	Posted 09-Aug-2008 at 10:56 by coffeebean

$smwife\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'s Avatar$

Awww lovely blog post, hun!! Congrats to you, you have worked so hard and been through so much, you thoroughly deserve to make it through to second year! in a few short months you'll be half way through/1 if anything I am finding second year goes even more quickly than the first year!!

I have always known you'll make a fantastic midwife, you are so kind and caring. You are nearer to the finish now than the start and I have loved watching you take this journey so far, and looking forward to seeing the rest of it, dear friend! You're doing just great, I am so very proud of you

xxxxxxxxx

Posted 10-Aug-2008 at 12:07 by smwife smwife is offline

	$potbella\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'s Avatar$ Well Done Missy! I am sure you will be able to do even better next year (and you will be a fab source of info for all us new first years)
	Posted 10-Aug-2008 at 20:43 by potbella

	Well done MM! See you can do it and you will be a fab MW! Good luck in year 2 and I look forward to picking your brain come september!
	Posted 12-Aug-2008 at 11:37 by Billynomates

	$smw81\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\\'s Avatar$ Missy I think this perfectly sums up first year. Very well written and lovely to read xx
	Posted 19-Sep-2008 at 21:00 by smw81

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