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Final goodbyes

Posted 29-May-2009 at 23:29 by Tasha
Updated 29-May-2009 at 23:32 by Tasha

I am sorry for another sad blog.

It is now the 30th of May which means that it is two years today since we said our final goodbyes to Honey.

We spent the morning trying to keep busy, getting ready, and our families came to our house.

At 1pm the car arrived, Honey's coffin was already in the middle of it on a special chair as we didnt feel a hearse was right for her, my parents took my other children, and me and my dh went in the car so it was just the three of us and the driver. I will never forget seeing that tiny little coffin, my heart really broke again, it was so real now, the coffin was so tiny and this seemed so unfair. As I read her name on that silver plaque I really felt like I was going to collapse with the pain. Honey was right in front of us yet I couldnt see her, and couldnt hold her when all I wanted to do was pick her up and run. It just seemed cruel.

The cemetery wasnt very far, so we got there at 1.08pm, it was a miserable rainy day which suited my mood fine. Matt carried our precious little girl into the chapel, it was a tiny chapel that was no longer used but we had been given permission by the council to use it. There was no electric so the service was conducted by candle light, which made it more perfect for us. It was just us, our other children, our parents and siblings, just how we wanted it. The service began at 1.12pm, two weeks exactly since Honey was born silently into the world, the minister said some beautiful words, and we had chosen three different songs, which were played through out the service.

It was then time to take her to the burial plot, again her Daddy carried her, he gave Honey her final cuddle, and then Honey was carried down in the grave. It was so deep and her coffin look even smaller, the minister gave me a hug and told me to look after myself, and then my DH cuddled me, right then everyone seemed to get I needed a few moments, so they all stepped away, and I stood and talked to Honey, all the while wanting to jump in there and be with her, hold her.

So two years since I saw Honey in any shape or form, I miss her so much.

Love you to the moon and back always our precious little lady x x x x x x

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Massive hugs for you and your family Tasha x

Posted 29-May-2009 at 23:31 by Ani

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Hun I am thinking of you and your family. {{hugs}} The loss of a little one is a horrid thing and I know how you feel, it is 6 years on for me and I still think of my two but I see bits of them in my other children and that keeps me going x