Just writing it all down LOL
Posted 18-May-2008 at 20:48 by upsy daisy
Not added to the blog in a few days so thought it was about time I did so!! Sometimes I really think I'm on the right track and other times I feel like I have so far to go until I get to my goal......
I'm still loving my job as ward clerk and mostly enjoying it (even the very late finishes), occasionally someone is a little abrupt with me and it makes me feel like a "pleb" but mostly everyone is really nice and I try to help out as much as I can.
Sometimes I feel frustrated that my job isn't more "hands on" - I do try and volunteer for things that normally they get the HCA's to do - such as silly things like taking breast pumps to ladies or taking parents down to NICU etc...
Steve is mostly supportive although moans that he barely sees me - he gets home from work after I've left for work and I don't get back until around 12.30am on the evenings I work (4 evenings a week) but he knows that this is something I really want and is so important to me....
Starting to worry about lots of things though....when should I apply for access course? Should I look at becoming a HCA for more hands on experience before applying to uni? can I afford to go to uni? would I pass the interview? would I get a bursary? what would happen about childcare etc etc??
None of my doubts are whether I could do the job because nothing so far has put me off - all my concerns are monetary, worrying about the children etc etc...
Sorry I'm just waffling a little here but hey what else is a blog for?!! LOL
Just wanted to get some thoughts down as so much is buzzing through my mind atm
xxx
I'm still loving my job as ward clerk and mostly enjoying it (even the very late finishes), occasionally someone is a little abrupt with me and it makes me feel like a "pleb" but mostly everyone is really nice and I try to help out as much as I can.
Sometimes I feel frustrated that my job isn't more "hands on" - I do try and volunteer for things that normally they get the HCA's to do - such as silly things like taking breast pumps to ladies or taking parents down to NICU etc...
Steve is mostly supportive although moans that he barely sees me - he gets home from work after I've left for work and I don't get back until around 12.30am on the evenings I work (4 evenings a week) but he knows that this is something I really want and is so important to me....
Starting to worry about lots of things though....when should I apply for access course? Should I look at becoming a HCA for more hands on experience before applying to uni? can I afford to go to uni? would I pass the interview? would I get a bursary? what would happen about childcare etc etc??
None of my doubts are whether I could do the job because nothing so far has put me off - all my concerns are monetary, worrying about the children etc etc...
Sorry I'm just waffling a little here but hey what else is a blog for?!! LOL
Just wanted to get some thoughts down as so much is buzzing through my mind atm
xxx
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 |  Feel for you hun. There are so many decisions to make and only you can make them. The finances are a worry to everyone and you have to do what is right for your you and your family. I personally felt that it was now or never and just applied and was so surprised and excited I got two offers!! Do what you feel is right for you and yours. Big hugs to you as it is not easy to make all these choices! |
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| |  Good to read your thoughts. For what it's worth, I think you should start "pushing a few doors" to see which ones open, such as applying for a course, applying for a HCA post etc. It may take sometime for you to reach your final goal.  |
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| |  There are alot of decisions to make, but people with families do do this course, it just takes patience and above all, intense commitment. Sometimes there may never be a 'right' time, sometimes you may just have to go for it!!! god luck, keep your chin up and let us know how you get on. And you know i'm in the same building if you ever need a chat! xxxxxxxxx |
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| |  i have the same thoughts and worrys too ,i think thats why it took me so long to apply for my access i never dreamed i would actually go for it but one day on my way home from work i did! just like that. you will either go for it now or just wait a little bit longer.either way when u r ready you will decide when the times right. good luck xx |
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