Cursed? Jinxed?

After having a bad shift the other day, things have gone from bad to worse.
It's one thing after another, and I keep finding out things that happened on days off too,and over Christmas..

Basically over Christmas of first year my community mentor lost her mum, and I had had no idea that the reason her phone was off, was she was on compassionate leave. It led to a misunderstanding and me feeling extremely worried about going back.
This year over Christmas, my delivery suite mentor lost a family member, again I had no idea at all that it had happened and she'd been off. The first shift back I was due to work with her, she said I was working with someone else, no explanation, and barely saw her/spoke to her all day. I got very very confused and worried I'd done something to upset her and was nervous about going back to placement this week (especially with everything else thats happened). I found out through somebody else what had happened and it all made sense and has been fine since..

HOWEVER.. I am now beginning to worry about placement in third year.. Over the Christmas period.. and what's going to happen then?!
I know I'm probably being really silly, but I feel like I don't want to be on placement over Christmas because something will happen

There have also been a couple of poorly babies aside from the section one. I was looking after a lady who was about 30 weeks and having APH's, later that week she had an emergency section and I found out two nights ago that they were planning on withdrawing care from the baby because it was too ill
Also, I delivered a baby with gastroschisis, and that's not looking good either.
And I went for another section with somebody due to a massive prolonged bradycardia just a few days after the scary section.

I feel like it's never ending, my shift yesterday was fine though but it's completely over shadowed by all these worries.

Two more emergency sections and a forceps and one normal delivery since....
Forceps also went on to have a PPH lost then needed a transfusion. Even the normal birth was not fully normal. The woman screamed she was dying the whole time and something was wrong.. She'd had 4 babies before so this twitched us slightly!

The coordinator on sunday was grilling me about things as we had a lady in wanting a VBAC, then afterwards I was talking about my "curse" and she put a really positive slant on it, rather similar to what you said Curly! About how to take the most from these experiences, as the next time I see them, I may be the qualified midiwfenot the student!

You have my sympathy Redpiggy, I too have had all manner of things go 'wrong' on my labour ward placement. As curly said though, better to have them as a student than to go through training with loads of normality and qualify not being able to cope in an emergency.

You also have to remember (as was explained to me by lots of the lovely people on here) that even when you're in those situations you can still make a huge difference to the women and their families, just by being there for them.

You are not cursed!!