Hi all

I am normally the most positive person in the world, always see challenges not problems, see the best in people etc. etc., but today I feel I am at the end of my tether and just feel the need to vent. I hope you don't mind.

I have wanted to be a midwife for about 9 years but put everything on hold till I had completed my family. My youngest is almost 2 and I am just about to start working on my personal statement in preparation for applying to uni in 2009.

However, I am starting to worry that all I am getting is signs I shouldn't be doing this.

Things started to take a bit of a stressful turn for me about 6 years ago, when I got made redundant. That was fine, I looked at it as an opportunity to change my life, but as we had just moved house, bigger mortgage etc., had to get a job and pronto, which I did. What a mistake that turned out to be- my employers have turned out to be absolute horrors to work for, boss was terrible - favourites etc., however, I stuck it out, thinking I will be pregnant soon and be leaving. However, no such luck in conceiving (I have PCOS). About a year after that my DH developed a heart condition (which luckily is now stable) and ended up almost getting put on the transplant list, once he was on the road to recovery (well to being stable anyway) we went through fertility treatment which thank God was successful, then much longed for second child was diagnosed with a congenital heart defect and underwent open heart surgery about a year ago. I had just started to count my blessings and think things were on the up, so had started an evening class to get some up to date qualifications. I sat my final exam 2 weeks ago today and was feeling pretty happy, then .... my father in law died that night from a massive heart attack - totally unexpected - to complicate things he and DH run a business together so his entire life has been turned upside down. And now, my poor wee mum is in the HDU at our local hospital with a mystery infection- they are testing her for c diff. I am so worried about her... How can I even think of being so selfish and changing my families lives now.......

Any words of advice or even virtual hugs will be greatfully accepted..... and I hope to be back to my normal positive self soon....

Feel better now.

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'Do or Do Not. There is no Try.' Yoda
Applying to UWS Hamilton Campus for 2009 entry!

oh you poor thing,
think you just need to deal with things day by day at the moment. But if your PS is done, then send it. if you get a place you can always turn it down at the last minute if it looks unrealistic and unachievable at that moment in time.
big big hugs to you and your family
bit by bit....hour by hour.......day by day.......you will get through it
xxxx

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STMW 2nd year - no, really!

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So sorry to hear of everything that has happened, and it is so easy to think that life is against you at times like these.

But, as olly says, take one step, day, minute hour at a time, and see how things work out.

Sending you lots of hugs and positive thoughts, hope your Mum is soon feeling much better.

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Midwifemissy x

Student Midwife 2007
Student uni rep
Educational Resources Manager

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So sorry to hear of everything you have been through.

Hope your mum is ok and begins to feel better soon,
sending you these in the mean time

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misscurious x

Applying for 2009

Mikey to win...

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so sorry hun massive hugs to you xxxxxxxxxxxx

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yeah i got into college to do my access course sept 08 im on my way!!!

Sending you good vibes sometimes these obstacles just make you really sure about what you want to do in life.........your time will come, even if it isn't now.

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Frizzy bizzy and dizzy!

Oh, Scotschick!

You have had a really rough time of it, I don't blame you for feeling down.

I agree with all the lovely advice people have given you, but would urge you not to give up on your application. Someone who is as thoughtful and selfless as you is just what the world of Midwifery needs! If you do apply, you have nothing to lose. If you had a successful interview, got a place and it wasn't the right time you could defer that place - most Unis are very accommodating in that way.

I wish you all the best whatever you decide to do, and know that there is always support for you here!
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Hi Scotschick,

Oh my god !! you poor thing you really have been through it
You are such a strong person to have dealt with all those dramas!! I think

you should go for for it one step at a time i know you would make a great midwife!!

Jules xx

Thank you one and all for your kind words and hugs. A bit of good news - my mum is now out of high dependency but she is isolated on a ward as they still haven't ruled out c difficile. She is still pretty ill but much better than she was.

I am going to start on my personal statement tomorrow!!

Thanks again

Elizabeth

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'Do or Do Not. There is no Try.' Yoda
Applying to UWS Hamilton Campus for 2009 entry!